Exactly 10 years back from today, on Gandhi Jayanthi, the
second of October 2004, I started transforming myself. With this year 2014, it becomes a decade. I was studying first PUC in KCD College, Dharwad in 2004 and
today I’m in Bangalore, working in big reputed software MNC with handful of
money. How time flies by!
During early days of my school, my mother use to sit &
teach me. Later on, I was educationally
adopted by my guru "Doddwad"(which will be covered in a separate blog). I use to go to
his house for studying and he use to teach me. Things like what to study, how
much to study, when to study, everything was very well planned to me by my guru.
All I had to do is, just follow them.
After I finished my schooling & started with college, around
10 years back, my house was very small (just a hall & a kitchen) and hence
no privacy or separate room to study. Earlier I use to study in my guru’s home
under his supervision, but after I joined college, he disappeared. I didn't had
any separate place to study. Also not to mention, the level of study grows
exponentially from school to college. Better to have a separate room.
My mother understood the necessity & without any
hesitation went to our kind-of neighbor, who had a godown(room) underneath their
house. I don’t know what she talked with them but they generously offered me to
study in that big godown(room) as anyway they weren't using it at free of cost. I am so thankful to them.
The day on which they handed over me the keys of that godown(room) was on October 2, 2004.
To recall, on that day, it was holiday as Gandhi Jayanthi & I was
super excited. I cleaned up a bit and shifted all my big-big fat books of
Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics, Statistics to my new room. I also performed small
pooja (pray) before entering into this room on this very same day (a decade back).
From October 2, on wards, I started on my own independently.
I formulated my own dreams, defined my own rules, started with my own
dedication & focused on my own goals. Nobody to tell me, what to study, how
much to study, when to study, I defined everything on my own with some desired
& expected outcome. In other words, I started transforming myself into a new self-made
Prasanna (unknowing whether I’ll succeed or not)
I had that room until my first semester of engineering (almost
2 years). During this time, if I have lived for 100% then 85% of the time, I have
spent in that room studying, analyzing, talking to myself, making mistakes, screaming, learning on my own, dreaming about future, making plans etc. So much of
wonderful time spent over there for 2 years. To briefly describe about my room, it was way too big (almost equivalent to a 30x40 site) & I use to sit at one corner of such big room with my study table with all those charts of trigonometry, formulas, periodic table etc on the wall in front of me. The flooring was full of red-oxide (red color). Even if I scream, nobody could hear me. I really enjoyed every moment spent in that room.
I still remember, I use to spend time & study so much in
that room that even after my second PUC exams were finished (including CET exam)
& I had nothing to study till I get my results & choose engineering, I
use to miss the room very much, so much that I simply use to go and sit over
there for hours. I don’t know what I use to do, but I was so happily ready to
even sit idle & spend hours in that room.
I had never told about this room
of mine to anyone. Hardly some 2 or 3 people have entered in my room & that
too either once or hardly twice. The environment, fragrance & the warmth in that room was full of me & only ME. It feels like a part of my soul use to live
there (& it might still does, probably!)
There are few best things that have happened in my life
& getting this room to rediscover myself is one among them. If I think back
on how I was, a decade back, it amuses me. That Prasanna was so naive &
innocent. He had dreams & todo lists. Sometimes, when I close my eyes, I
can meet him & if I compare him with current Prasanna, I suppose innocent Prasanna
is very happy as he fulfilled most of his dreams in a decade and all this was
possible because of this room. So from Oct 2, 2004 to Oct 2, 2014 its been a
decade of transformation! #JustSaying ;)
